My teenage drawings, created as a diary, are grouped into categories reflecting emotional states such as love, desire, and sadness. They served as a tool to explore my sexuality at an early stage of my life, before I met other LGBTQ+ individuals and became familiar with queer discourse. These drawings come from one of the many sketchbooks I kept throughout my childhood and adolescence. This particular sketchbook is dedicated to different life situations—like first dates, my first girlfriend, my first love for a boy, encounters with strangers, travels, and even my first trips abroad. The drawings were also presented as part of a group exhibition at the West Museum in The Hague, titled 'Pickle Bar Presents. They were shown alongside a documentary that my friend Dawid Nickel filmed about me between 2018 and 2020. In the film, he visited my conservative parents and attempted a kind of 'queer coming out' on my behalf, introducing them to my world and addressing the barriers of oppression that had shaped our relationship since my teenage years.

'High School Drawings'
ink and pastel on paper
sketchbook, 20 x 30 cm, 2008

Another series of drawings made during high school classes formed a secret sketchbook, depicting imaginative stylizations of women. At that time, femininity was a completely repressed sphere for me, surfacing only in the act of drawing as a subconscious identity. This sketchbook focused exclusively on female silhouettes, which I portrayed in the manner of fashion models, borrowing from a designer’s aesthetic. Each drawing became a private incarnation of femininity, a hidden embodiment preserved only on paper.

The works were later presented in the group exhibition You’ve Gone Incognito. Cross-dressing and Home Photoshoots at the Fort Institute of Photography in Warsaw (2021), organized as part of Warsaw Gallery Weekend. It was the first exhibition in Poland devoted to the theme of cross-dressing. Alongside my drawings, the show also featured works by Michel Journiac, Tomasz Machciński, Pierre Molinier, and Zbigniew Libera.

'A Step Forward'
charcoal on paper
5 drawings 30 x 21 cm, 2023

This piece relates to a recurring motif in my work: women's calves and high heels. It also nods to my youthful fascination with the art of Toulouse-Lautrec, who often featured this motif in posters and paintings of Parisian nightlife and the liberated women of the 19th-century metropolis. That imagery once fueled my imagination as I formed my first ideas of what femininity could be.

In this work, I used charcoal to reference both my working-class background and my father’s profession as a miner. I broke down the act of taking a step forward in high heels into a sequence of movements, drawing inspiration from Marcel Duchamp. In doing so, I wanted to create a work that illustrates how one makes a step forward as a member of a minority undergoing emancipation and carving out more space for themselves. The work was showcased at the opening of a new space of Her Clique in Lisbon alongside pieces by artists such as Katarína Janečková, Tracey Emin, and Zanele Muholi in a women-focused art space dedicated to female art.

'Hommage à la Toulouse-Lautrec'
pastel on paper
30 x 42 cm, 2023

The drawings expand on the theme of calves and high heels in my practice. In this case, the motif is presented as a descent down stairs in various pastel colors, and it’s deliberately framed in the kind of frames you often see above urinals in bathrooms. This reveals how this part of the body is both a fetish and something that sparks sexual imagination. It also refers to cruising, which often took place in public restrooms and was one of the few spaces where queer people could form intimate connections.

The works were shown in the group exhibition Everything I Have is in the Shape of Its Shape at Łęctwo Gallery in Poznań (2023). They related to various notions drawn from the poetry collection Udawanie ludzi (Pretending People) by Maja Demska — a curator and poet whose book I illustrated.

'Diaries from Adulthood'
mixed media
series 70 x 100 cm, 2024

'I don't want prostate cancer to slow me down'
collage with charcoal and pastel on paper,
70 x 100 cm, 2024

'Step by step '
collage with charcoal and pastel on paper,
70 x 100 cm, 2024

'Anticipation'
collage with charcoal and pastel on paper,
70 x 100 cm, 2024

'Self portrait in charm and anger I'
charcoal and pastel on paper,
43 x 33 cm, 2024

'I forgot my PIN code and I can't free you'
charcoal, pastel, acrylic spray and twigs on paper,
70 x 100 cm, 2024

'Almost collapsed when I saw you for the second time'
charcoal, pastels and acrylic spray on paper,
70 x 100 cm, 2024

'Rare beauty'
collage with charcoal and pastel on paper,
70 x 100 cm, 2024

'Red carpet at the Venice Film Festival'
charcoal, pastel, acrylic spray,
100 x 70 cm, 2024

'Office'
collage with charcoal and pastel on paper,
70 x 100 cm, 2024

'Last night is still going on and it's fine'
charcoal, pastel, acrylic spray,
100 x 70 cm, 2024

'Very Old Art Historians talking to me in German at the table '
collage with charcoal and pastel on paper,
70 x 100 cm, 2024

'In conversation with my turtle Max'
collage with charcoal and pastel on paper,
70 x 100 cm, 2024

'Self portrait in charm and anger II' charcoal and pastel on paper,
46 x 40 cm, 2024

This series of large-format drawings, created in 2024, combines various techniques—spray paint, pastels, charcoal, and personal everyday objects—into a collage-like form. These works reflect different moments from my queer life over the past few years—my relationship with a turtle, participating in the Venice Film Festival, studying art history, exploring identity transformation, working in an office, my sexual life, working in theater, stepping into the world of performance, and eventually leaving that office job behind.

The drawings also reference a range of styles from art history, where the body sometimes appears fragmented, stretched, and surreal, and at other times constructed and restrained. In this way, I analyze how different experiences have shaped my perception.

'Work in progress'
charcoal on paper
ongoing series, 42 x 30 cm, 2023

The work in progress, in which the artist regularly creates charcoal portraits of new, fictional women. The drawings do not aim for anatomical correctness; instead, they oppose academic rules by grounding art in everyday life, the body, and emotions. Each work references an ephemeral, quick drawing style that captures fleeting incarnations of femininity as they form in the artist’s mind. The series, which already includes several dozen works and continues to grow, treats drawing as a tool for testing intuitions and directions of development that later reappear in other fields such as performance and theatre. Ultimately, it reflects the ongoing evolution of the artist’s own sense of femininity.